| My God is mighty to save.... |
[12 Apr 2007|08:16pm] |
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This almost seems so surreal to me.
I don't think I've ever cried so much over a friend leaving in my life. Anthony moved to L.A. today, and I can't think of any other word than bittersweet. Because thats what it is, to its fullest. I can't imagine what it's going to be like without having him to call to hangout, or ending a conversation with 'ok, see you tonight!', or just calling him without worrying what hes doing and what not. But, on the other hand.... God has called Anthony out of Memphis. God has His hand over this. This is God's plan. and He's going to comfort myself, Anthony, his family, his friends, Brooklyn. All of us. And i'm sooooo excited to hear how Anthony is going to be used over there. I can't even comprehend what God has in store for his life! ahhhh! Just excitement. I am going to miss my best friend, but, there's always phone calls, text messages, pic messages, comments, letters, whatever! And i have a pretty good feeling i'll be seeing him soon.
On lighter notes i'm almost done with school. I have met the most amazing boy. I have peace with everything. I went 13 hours without power yesterday. I'm getting a chinchilla soon. I know who I am. And Princess Ball is tomorrow! yayayaa. pictures soon.
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| You're something I never needed... |
[02 Apr 2007|10:39am] |
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Awesome Friday: Battle of the bands at Rhodes college...downing pina coladas and strawberry daquiris.. mmmm.. Mocktails, I might add. But it was really fun... everyone was having a good time. and it was just a "CUTE" ( heh, anthony ) atmosphere.
AWESOME SATURDAY: Rode up to Jackson with Meredith to see the Crabb Family... & Micah. It was really awesome seeing him again&getting to hangout. Off road adventures. :) Spongebob chicken box. Pouring rain. Silly stalkas. Cute text messages. Zoey. An amazing sense of the Spirit. Happy ( official ) belated Crabb Family Day in Jackson! Mmhmm. All good.
Awesome Day: Palm Sunday is always incredible/refreshing. Pastor Ron bringing it. Spending time with Ash. Face painting 387927923 little rugrats. But I do love them. Getting sunbaked. Dinner&a movie.
I am so blessed, I really really am. I hate that sometimes I take things for granted, I'm working on that. I just don't want to wake up one day and everything be gone, and I'm sitting there wondering, "What happened?"....Because, wow. I have some of the best friends in the world. I have a peace that can only come from one place. I have a relationship with Him. My family loves me and I love them. I know where I'm headed. God is more enough and He will provide. I'm scared for the future, but I have a calmness about it. This is far beyond anything I've ever dreamed, And something I cannot do on my own. But I'm ready and willing.
:).
Things could not be better.
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| Should have smiled in that picture, if it's the last that i'll see of you.. |
[29 Mar 2007|09:53pm] |
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So my decisions to make! Stress... mmmm no good, no good. But I'm pushing through.. as usaul. With a smile on my face, and joy in my heart. Positivity makes a world of difference. Mhmm.
I'm ready for this weekend;
Tomorrow: Battle of the bands at Rhondes College ( Yay, everyone should come and watch my beffwend Anthony drum it! ).then slumber party at Merediths. :)
Saturday: Jacksonnnnnn..! To see the Crabb Family and hangout.
Sunday: Palm Sunday...& I'm face paiting.. so everyone, come out and get your face painted by me.
I've had such a creativity rush as of lately.
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| Pardon me for saying so, but you look more pitiful than I had ever imagined. |
[20 Mar 2007|12:28am] |
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The past couple of days have been full of gut hurting laughs!
Brooks: Why do you buy water?
Me: Because, it helps the children in Africa.
Brooks: I'm an illegitimate child... It never goes away. Kind of like aids.
Haunted houses.
Peach tea can wars.
Gangster drive by's.
Proposing to azn waiteress.
Prickly legs.
Waterfall.
BIG MOMMA BOOTY!
Sushi.
Rice slurping.
"It's impossible to eat rice with chopsticks'
"Duh, that's why asians are so skinny"
Crack house?
Intercoms.
"Brooks, steer!!"
The Most Evil Secret Societys.
"Find a better spot , rere... *HORN*"
Ball wars.
Sweeping the beach.
The letter D.
"Wait... Is that a cop?!"
Car chase.
We'll call 911, and say they started it!
"Caitlin, they are no where near us, Why are you driving into a cove?!"
Hit the duck! Wait... no... I'd rather you hit that person!
Slashing of the Easter Bunny?
Redneck friends. :)
Overdrawing banking account.
"Hey, do you take checks?"
".... Hey! Wheres my catfish?"
"I promise I looked for a catfish gift on facebook'
"Drive back around! Let's make the circle!"
Standing in the field.
'Ya'll stay right there, I have to go pee!'
Theres so much crap in my flip flops!
Caitlin will always be my first love.
"I never eat anything orange.... unless it's well... an orange"
Caitlin's on drugs. Who knew?
No, it's a joke.
"Don't be silly, I do like you! :) "
He can't go no.. satisfaction!
REM.
Turn off your lights! Turn off your lights!
'I think it'd be funny if the headlights turned on.. "
"Oh, and the car starts to roll forward, too? "
"Hey, don't worry ladies, I washed my hands.... There was a sink behind the tree"
Who wants to drive? Not it, Not it, Not it... Oh. I guess the one with the keys.
"This is a dead park"
"OH GOODNESS, I HIT THE SHED!'
Run... run.... running!
Red light in the trees.
... I'm sure there's more but none that I can think of. Its been swell. :) night!
ps. my friends are the funniest.
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| I've spent a lot of time questioning certain circumstances... |
[10 Mar 2007|02:33pm] |
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What an awesome day!
I got a Dell Pocket PC Palm Pilot axim, && a Dell laptop& a scanner. Oh goodness!! I got everything for $200, My parents know how to find the deals, and i love it. We have to goto Comcast on Monday to get another wireless connecter.
If anyone knows how to get this Palm Pilot hooked up to the net, That'd be awesome, because I really am lost. It didn't come with instructions, because we bought it off a friend of a friend who was a dell representive. :(
sushi&movies tonight!!
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| i'll fall in love my second time around... |
[18 Feb 2007|03:39pm] |
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I'm leaving on a jet plane, Don't know when I'll be back again.
..Pretty much.
Last night was fun, I love sushi and friends, and .. master's commission. I really have missed Anthony and Jeremy a lot. Jeremy & I got to catch up a lot last night, which was good because I feel like i never even get to see that boy at all anymore. So yay for catching up, and yay for summer plans.
A lot of things are changing. I don't know if its for the good or bad, but the fact is, they are change it. And ready or not, its time to accept it. Ive never been one to like change too much, but we'll see how this works out. I have God Almighty on my side. And I know I'm in His perfect will. I'm where I need to be. And I'm at peace knowing that.
Nashville, Jackson, and Nashville trip is soon! Two Crabb Family shows and then Anberlin with MIcah. Beyond stoked for that!
I need to decide if I want to go on that cruise for graduation, because we need to get it booked. I don't know.... agh! decisons, decisions.
summer needs to be here!
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| Life is good, eternal life is better... |
[15 Feb 2007|07:47pm] |
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Two more days until I can finally see MMC again.
Time for a big change, and I'm ready to move on.
I don't think I've ever prayed so much or so hard in the past two days than I have in my entire life, But thats okay. Confirmation is a good thing. So is peace. And with prayer, I defintely have both of those things. This is not my life, but His. And I'm willing to submitt fully over to Him. Because I am so lost without Him.. That's what has been missing from my life lately... A lot of seekingHim kinda prayer. and I need to apply this to my life daily.
Savannah and I are watching Alice in Wonderland and I forget how retarded this movie is. Defintely wasn't worth $2.95.
It just gets to the point where all the lies and being shady adds up, and you just couldn't care less anymore. And that's okay, because My God is going to pull me through. So are my friends. And I will be okay. And everything will be right again.
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| He never promised that the cross would not give heavy.. |
[10 Feb 2007|02:53pm] |
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Good reminder, anyway.
I have been super busy as of lately. If I'm not out and about, I'm at home doing schoolwork or catching up some painting... because I have missed it very much. I have been on and off sick, and I'm not sure which one it is today. For a little bit, I feel like i'm going to throw up... next minute, I feel fine. Bipolar sickness, maybe? not sure...
Yesterday, all i did was eat. Which isn't helping my surgery procedure, But I did get some time with my girls. It may not be helping my mood today though. Yesterday afternoon, Anna&Caitlin&Brooklyn plus myself went to outback for lunch&girltime. Then Caitlin went to work... And Anna&myself stayed with Desiree [ Caitlins sister. ] where we went and bought Ben and Jerry's icecream because Kroger had it on sale. THEN, when Caitlin got off work.... we went to eat sushi. so yum! But now my stomach is in knots.
& it may not help that I'm about to goto Bigfoot lodge and possibly partake in eating the Yeti.
But, I'm glad 'cause I'll finally get to see Candace and Billy.. for the first time in forever.
I have soooo much on my mind, it's probably ridiculous. I was kinda asked a very important question yesterday, and it could very well change everything. And I'm not sure if I'm ready because it's such a big step towards my future; I'm so used to taking tiny baby steps but that doesn't seem to be the case. I just pray that God directs my decision. I pray that God directs a lot of my friends decisions who are going through a big transition in life.
That's all for now; off to get ready.
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| Take the sun away, I'm still gonna shine. |
[25 Jan 2007|11:15am] |
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Graceland is way too expensive;
Thank God the trip was postponed.
Well, atleast to where I can save up more money, because I have none.
I still don't understand you and your choices,
But I pray for you a lot. and You're in my thoughts.
Gateway is ridiculous, I can't wait until I'm out of there.
I'm ready for the next season in my life,
But, I'm patient.
I'm savoring it right now. I really am.
I love God. Oh, I do.
Memphis Idol was a disappointment.
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| There you are baby, waiting on the sun.... |
[23 Jan 2007|12:03am] |
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Things have just been swell!
I'm loving the way things are playing out. I'm loving Christ more and more, which is a lot, I'm telling you. He simply amazes me. And it's a constant thing! He keeps me on the edge of my seat, wanting more. He keeps me on my feet, constantly going. Yup, That's My God! He keeps me in awe.
Last couple of days have been a blast. Saturday night prayer was powerful. Last night, Anna, Anthony, and myself went to see With Blood Comes Cleansing! That made my entire night, even if we didn't get to see much. They were incredible. And today, myself plus the same people had an early sushi date... with a magic moving bowl! & Then tonight, MMC basketball was a blast, as usaul. Then hung out with Anna & Caitin. It was a party, indeed.
Graceland saturday! mmhmm. :) - I've never been, so I'm stoked.
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| I'm seeing this band tonight....! |
[21 Jan 2007|03:19pm] |
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GolgothaThis is the place of the skull where terror reigned. A crucifixion of agony
and pain. A crown of thorns pierced his skin. Bound by our wages of sin.
Mercy so undeserved. We cursed our God. While He suffered. The skies grow
dark and the earth shakes and for a second your heart breaks. Eloi lama sabacthani. Our souls lie in Golgotha. Prophecy fulfilled in Golgotha.
... My God!
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| Just forget each other's names, and walk away... |
[18 Jan 2007|04:44pm] |
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I've been so blessed as of lately. To wittness something as powerful and great as Youth Discipleship Walk.. To serve those teenagers, To make a difference. To worship my King on a hourly basis, To get to go shopping, To get my hair done, To have surgery coming right around the corner, To know God, To have a new cell phone, To have awesome parents, to be getting along with everyone in my family. To... well, everything!
But I'd give the majority of that up, to see you truly happy.
And by majority, I mean all the wordly things [ haircut, surgery, etc etc. ]
Whats friendship for?
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| You can't live without giving your life away... |
[12 Jan 2007|02:09am] |
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pink poodle purses.
hippies.
cupcakes everywhere you turn.
hurting hands.
magic dough.
causing a scene in kroger.
"hey boy, i'll give you a warrant!"
finding every little thing amusing.
BANNAHHAAA.
...i'd say we've had a pretty sucessful night.
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| Today in a blink of an eye, I'm holding onto something & i don't know why.. |
[27 Dec 2006|02:32am] |
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I love this time of year. Everyone seems so happy, and giving, and loving! And it's so refreshing in the kind of world we live in today. I love seeing smiles on so many people! And the new year is just right around the corner. I wonder what 2007 shall hold in store for me. For my friends. For my family. God's going to do wonderous things.
Mmmm, i love the song Wait. It's a puzzle I can't seem to solve. I love picking apart lyrics, trying to figure out all kinds of meanings behind them.
Christmas was good. I was blessed with a lot. Plus, I have a racecar bed in the mail. And am getting a chinchilla and a shopping spree [ for clothes ] in January when we get some tax money back, so I'm pretty stoked for all of that. Family time at my grandparents really wasn't that bad this year. I stuck close to Lauren and Adam. Which, by the way, My sister and I have been getting along. Weird. I guess we're getting older, and we're realizing we have more in common than we thought. I don't know. I probably just jynxed the niceness of us lately, ha.
And something that has been on my mind lately, It seems a lot of my friends have drama. and I'm not even quite sure why. 99.95 of the time, They play a MAJOR part in starting in.. and then complain when it's started. And whine, and moan, and groan. LET.... IT......GO! Life is way too short to be dealing with that kind of stuff! Time is too precious to be fighting with one another. I understand people make mistakes, but learn from them. Just thought I'd throw this in here...
Tonight was fun. Anna, Matt, and myself went to target and bought the Holiday pack of Jones soda [ Turkey and dressing soda, sweet potato soda, pea soda, antacid soda, and dinner roll soda. mmmm ]...I don't think I'm going to drink them though. Display only, please! Then we drove around, and magically ended up downtown! Then walgreens and got a lot of stuff 50% off, that ruled! And then Lauren's. Yep, was a party hard kind of evening... hah.
well, Goodnight everyone.
Hope you all had a very Merry Christmas. :]
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[23 Dec 2006|01:53pm] |
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Ahhh, I hate being sick!
I hate it even more because I find myself constantly busy... or constantly out. I never get enough rest... and even if I tell myself i'm going to get some rest, it never seems to be the case. But, that's okay. Because I love everything I do. I just need to make some time for rest. Mmmm, this afternoon, possibly! Right before my day begins...
Today, I'm going last minute Christmas shopping with Anna!! Then possibly sushi... and then a Christmas movie marathon at Becky's with a lot of folks. Yay for that. :) I still need to order Jeremy's and Michael's belt buckles, blahh.. But I probably won't see them for awhile anyway.. so.. I should have them when I see them next... hopefully. .
Hmm. I love stupid kids at walmart. :). Oh, and drunk dudes at chili's. Mmmmm.
Christmas eve is tomorrow, and i'm stoked. I can't wait for Christmas morning. Mainly to see Jay's face as he opens his gift. He makes everything better. He's sooo excited for Christmas, and it's exciting because he actually knows what Christmas IS this year! He's getting so big...&so cute!
And even through the hype of Christmas, I've got to keep my eyes set on the Big Man upstairs! It's all about Him. Always.
Merry Eve of Christmas Eve!
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| If it's not too late for coffee, I'll be at your place at 10... |
[12 Dec 2006|04:19am] |
After sitting in diners all night, after 10 cups of coffee,
After countless songs on the juke box ranging from Johnny Cash to Jessica Simpson,
After endless prayers, and constant worrying....
I'm calm. I know it doesn't directly affect me, but it does indirectly because it affects someone dear to me. I know I'm not making much sense because it's 4am, and I'm wide awake because of the endless coffee supply tonight... but bare with me. Or is it bear? shoot, I don't know.
Things have been going really good though. Or atleast, I think. I don't like to complain because it doesn't make the problems go away, it just makes seem worse. Keep positive. It helps, I swear. And I dont even like to swear. And stay in constant contact with Him. I hate negativity... a lot. And it seems to be piling up, but Ive got to keep my head up. In any situation. I will pull through, WE will pull through, YOU will pull through. And most importantly, HE WILL PULL THROUGH.
yes, i do believe.
goodnight livejournal.
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| You were the one, we always looked upto. |
[24 Nov 2006|05:41pm] |
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I don't even know what to say. I've been numb since last night, I'm still in shock. I've tried to put in the back of my mind, but it keeps sneaking up on me. I walked into my house this morning, and I couldn't fight the tears no matter how hard I tried. I've been denying it to myself until now. I just saw it on the News, and I don't even know what to think. I finally have the confirmation I've been so desperately looking for all day, and I still refuse to believe it. I refuse to believe how cruel this world actually is sometimes. And how unfair things seem to be. She was more than a teacher, she was a friend.
I saw her for the last time three weeks ago. When Anna, Caitlin, and myself went to Bolton to help flyer for Fall Rush. And she was one of the very few teachers who I wanted to visit. We stood in her room, and talked about God, life, her husband, && Winston. And I know God had that planned out. I feel so much better knowing that she had a strong faith in Him. If I hadn't visited her three weeks ago, It's something I would have questioned. But I'm at an ease knowing she's where she belongs. But it's still so hard, It's still hurts. And I'm still having trouble fighting tears that seem to keep coming so easily.
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